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But Scarlett had grown up in a world where it was...Sunday 3 January 2010
But Scarlett had grown up in a world where it was accepted that sometimes a crop failed or a storm wrought havoc. She knew that next year would be different, and certainly better. She was not a failure because of the disaster of the drought and the hail. It wasn't like the lumber business or the store where she would have been responsible if there had been no profit. Besides, the losses would barely make a dent in her fortune. could be extravagant for the rest of her life, and the crops at hara could fail every year, and she would still have plenty of money Scarlett sighed unconsciously. For so many years she worked and scrimped and saved, thinking that if only she could I enough money, she would be happy. Now she had it, thanks Rhett, and somehow it didn't mean anything at all. Except that t was no longer anything to work for, to scheme and strive for. She wasn't foolish enough to want to be poor and despei again, but she needed to be challenged, to use her quick" to conquer obstacles. And so she thought with longing about jumping fences and ditches and taking chances on a powerful horse she controlled by force of will. When the accounts were done, Scarlett turned to the pile personal mail with a silent groan. She hated writing letters. She ready knew what was in the mail. Many were invitations. She them in a stack. harriet could pen the polite refusals for her, no would know she hadn't written them herself, and harriet loved useful. There were two more proposals. Scarlett received at least week. They pretended to be love letters, but she knew very well they wouldn't be there if she wasn't a rich widow. Most of them, anyhow. She replied to the first one with the convenient phrases about "honored by your regard" and "unable to return your affection to the degree you merit" and "place incalculable value on your friendship" that protocol demanded and supplied. The second was not so easy. It was from Charles Ragland. Of all the men she had met in Ireland, Charles was the most truly eligible to her. His adoration was convincing, not at all like the elaborate fawning over her that so many men did. he wasn't after her money, she was sure of that. he came from money himself, his people were big landowners in England. he was a younger son, and he'd chosen the army instead of the Church. But he must have some money of his own. His dress uansfield Park by Jane Austen A PENN STATE ELECTRONIC CLASSICS SERIES PUBLICATION Mansfield Park by Jane Austen is a publication of the Pennsylvania State University. This Portable Document file is furnished free and without any charge of any kind. Any person using this document file, for any purpose, and in any way does so at his or her own risk. Neither the Pennsylvania State University nor Jim Manis, Faculty Editor, nor anyone associated with the Pennsylvania State University assumes any responsibility for the chloe white material contained within the document or for the file as an electronic transmission, in any way. Mansfield Park by Jane Austen, the Pennsylvania State University, Electronic Classics Series, Jim Manis, Faculty Editor, Hazleton, PA 18202-1291 is a Portable Document File produced as part of an ongoing student publication project to bring classical works of literature, in English, to free and easy access of those wishing to make use of them. Cover Design: Jim Manis Copyright ? 2007 The Pennsylvania State University The Pennsylvania State University is an equal opportunity university. 3 Jane Austen Mansfield Park (1814) by Jane Austen (1775-1817) CHAPTER I ABOUT THIRTY YEARS AGO Miss Maria Ward, of Huntingdon, with only seven thousand pounds, had the good luck to captivate Sir Thomas Bertram, of Mansfield Park, in the county of Northampton, and to be thereby raised to the rank of a baronet?s lady, with all the comforts and consequences of an handsome house and large income. All Huntingdon exclaimed on the greatness of the match, and her uncle, the lawyer, himself, allowed her to be at least three thousand pounds short of any equitable claim to it. She had two sisters to be benefited by her elevation; and such of their acquaintance as thought Miss Ward and Miss Frances quite as handsome as Miss Maria, did not scruple to predict their marrying with almost equal advantage. But there certainly are not so many men of large fortune in the world as there are pretty women to deserve them. Miss Ward, at the end of half a dozen years, found herself obliged to be attached to the Rev. Mr. Norris, a friend of her brother-in-law, with scarcely any private fortune, and Miss Frances fared yet worse. Miss Ward?s match, indeed, when it came to the point, was not 4 Mansfield Park contemptible: Sir Thomas being happily able to give his friend an income in the living of Mansfield; and Mr. and Mrs. Norris began their Time that described them. Every evening she took the newspaper down to Kennedy's bar to show the people of Ballyhara how famous The O'hara was. Day by day, grumbling about Scarlett's fondness for the English gave way to pride that The O 'hara was more admired than any of the Anglo women. Colum did not applaud Rosaleen Fitzpatrick's cleverness. His mood was too somber for him to see the humor in it. "The Anglos will seduce her just as they're doing John Devoy," he said. Colum was both wrong and right. No one in Dublin wanted Scarlett to be less Irish. It was a large part of her attractiveness. The O'hara was an original. But Scarlett had discovered an unsettling truth. The Anglo-Irish thought of themselves as being just as Irish as the O 'Naras of Adamstown. "These families were living in Ireland before America was even settled," Charlotte Montague said one day in irritation. "Now can you call them anything but Irish?" Scarlett couldn't unravel the complexities, so she stopped cheap rolex watches trying. She didn't really have to, she decided. She could have both worlds -the Ireland of Ballyhara's farms and the Ireland of Dublin Castle. Cat would have them, too, when she grew up. And that's much better than she would have had if I'd stayed in Charleston, Scarlett told herself firmly. When the Saint Patrick's Ball ended at four in the morning, the Castle Season was over. The next event was some miles away in County Kildare. Everyone would be at the Punchestown Races, Charlotte told her. She'd be expected to be there. Scarlett declined. "I love racing and horses, Charlotte, but I'm ready to go home now. I'm late already with this month's office hours. I'll pay for the hotel reservations you made." No need, said Charlotte. She could sell them for four times their cost. And she herself had no interest in horses. She thanked Scarlett for making her an independent woman. "You are independent now as well, Scarlett. You don't need me any more. Stay on Mrs. Sims' good side and let her dress you. The Shelbourne has reserved your rooms for next year's Season. Your house will accommodate all the guests you ever want to have, and your housekeeper is the most professional woman I've ever met in that position. You are in the world now. Do with it what you will." "What will you do, Charlotte?" "I will have what I always wanted. A small apartment in a Roman palazzo. Good food, good wine, and day after day of sunlight. I abh in the convent soreeyed nuns were putting the final tiny stitches into exquisite lace. None of it mattered. She must be home, waiting, when Rhett arrived. If only John Morland hadn't taken so long to tell her about everything, she could have been on the Dublin train. Rhett might even be on it, he could have been going anywhere when he left Bart's box. It took nearly three and a half hours to get to Moate, where Scarlett got out of the train. It was after four, but at least she was on her way, instead of on the train that was just leaving Galway. "Where can I buy a good horse?" she asked the station master. "I don't care what it costs, as long as it has a saddle and bridle and speed." She had almost fifty miles still to go. The owner of the horse wanted to bargain. Wasn't that half the pleasure of the selling? he asked his friends in the King's Coach bar after he bought a pint for every man there. The crazy woman had thrown gold sovereigns at him and gone off like the devil was on her trail. Astride! he didn't want to say how much lace she was showing nor how much leg with no decent covering to it at all, only a silk stocking and some boots not thick enough to walk on a floor with, never even to imagine resting in a stirrup. Scarlett led the limping horse across the bridge into Mullingar just before seven o'clock. At the livery stable she handed the reins to a groom. "Ne's not lame, just winded and with a weakness," she said. "Cool him down slowly and omega ladies watch constellation he'll be as good as he ever was, not that he was ever much. I'll give him to you if you'll sell me one of the hunters you keep for the officers at the fort. Don't tell me you don't have any, I've hunted with some of the officers, and I know where they rented their mounts. Change over this saddle in under five minutes and there's an extra guinea for you." By ten after seven she was on her way, with twenty-six miles ahead and directions for a shortcut if she went cross-country instead of following the road. She rode past Trim Castle and onto the road to Ballyhara at nine o'clock. Every muscle in her body ached, and her bones felt splintered. But she was only a little over three miles from home, and the misty twilight was gentle and soft on eyes and skin. A gentle rain began to fall. Scarlett leaned forward, patted the horse's neck "A good walk around and rubdown and the best hot mash in Counrv Meath for you, whatever your name is. You took those jumps his will be over soon, and then I can go home to Tara. Scarlett O 'Hara Hamilton Kennedy Butler stood alone, a few steps away from the other mourners at Melanie Wilkes' burial. It was raining, and the black-clad men and women held black umbrellas over their heads. They leaned on one another, the women weeping, sharing shelter and grief. Scarlett shared her umbrella with no one, nor her grief. The gusts of wind within the rain blew stinging cold wet rivulets under the umbrella, down her neck, but she was unaware of them. She felt nothing, she was numbed by loss. She would mourn later, when she could stand the pain. She held it away from her, all pain, all feeling, all thinking. Except for the words that repeated again and again in her mind, the words that promised healing from the pain to come and strength to survive until she was healed. This will be over soon, and then I can go home to Tara. ..... ashes to ashes, dust to dust ..." The minister's voice penetrated the shell of numbness, the words registered. No! Scarlett cried silently. Not Melly. That's not Melly's grave, it's too big, she's so tiny, her bones no bigger than a bird's. No! She can't be dead, she can't be. Scarlett's head jerked to one side, denying the open grave, the plain pine box being lowered into it. There were small half circle sunk into the soft wood, marks of the hammers that had driven the nails to close the lid above Melanie's gentle, loving, heart-shape face. No! You can't, you mustn't do this, it's raining, you can't put her there where the rain will fall on her. She feels the cold so, she mustn't be left in the cold rain. I can't watch, I can't bear it, I won't believe she's gone. She loves me, she is my friend, my only true friend. Melly loves me, she wouldn't leave me now just when I need her most. Scarlett looked at the people surrounding the grave, and anger surged through her. None of them care as much as I do, nor of them have lost rolex wrist watches as much as I have. No one knows how much I love her. Melly knows, though, doesn't she? She knows, I've got to believe she knows. They'll never believe it, though. Not Mrs. Merriwether, or the Meades or the Whitings or the Elsings. Look at them, bunched around India Wilkes and Ashley, like a flock of wet crows in mourning clothes. They're comforting Aunt Pittypat, all right, though everybody knows she takes on and cries her eyes out ovoe every little thing, down to a piece of toa panoply. At bottom, Scarlett had never in her life backed down from a challenge and never would. Another name was called. Not hers. God's nightgown! We they going to make her be last? Charlotte hadn't warned her that. Charlotte hadn't even told her until the last minute that she' be alone all the way. "I'll find you in the supper room after Drawing Room is over." That was a fine way to treat her, throw.. her to the wolves like that. She stole another glance down her She was terrified that she might just fall right out of the scandalc low-cut gown. That would really make this-what had C said? "An experience to remember." "Madam The O'hara of Ballyhara." Oh, Lord, that's me. She repeated Charlotte Montague'sing litany to herself. Walk forward, stop outside the door. A will lift the train you have looped over your left arm and arrange behind you. The Gentleman Usher will open the doors. Wait for to announce you. "Madam The O'hara of Ballyhara." Scarlett looked at the Throne Room. Well, Pa, what do you think of your Katie Scarlett now? she thought. I'm going to stroll along that fifty miles or so of red carpet runner and kiss the Viceroy of Ireland, cousin of the Queen of England. She glanced at the majestically dressed Gentleman Usher, and her right eyelid quivered in what might almost have been a conspiratorial wink. The O 'hara walked like an empress to face the Viceroy's redbearded magnificence and present her cheek for the ceremonial kiss of welcome. Turn to the Vicereine now and curtsey. Back straight. Not too low. Stand up. Now back, back, back, three steps, don't worry, the weight of the train holds it away from your body. Now extend your left arm. Wait. Let the footman have plenty of time to arrange the train over your arm. Now turn. Walk out. Scarlett's knees obligingly waited until she was seated at one of the supper tables before they started trembling. Charlotte made no attempt to hide her satisfaction. She entered Scarlett's bedroom with the stiff squares of white cardboard fanned in her hand. "My dear Scarlett, you were a dazzling success. These invitations arrived before even I was up and dressed. State Ball, that's quite special. Saint Patrick's Ball, that was to be expected. Second Drawing Room, you'll be able to watch other people running the gauntlet. And a small dance in the Throne Room. Three-fourths of the peers in Ireland have never been invited to one of the small miu miu leather black coffer bag dances."

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